There’s my face in all it’s glory! I first started this project as a message about inner-beauty, yada yada. But, I learned way more interesting things about myself!
Here are my revelations:
1. I can clearly tell by looking at each picture which days I had work vs my off days. Can you tell?
At work, I wear vibrant lipstick colors and lots of mascara. On my days off, I do minimal makeup.
Not too interesting, right? Wrong! It put me in a tailspin of overthinking about make up at work.
I want to believe I put makeup on for work because I want to ‘put my best face forward.’ But, even that doesn’t sit right with me. Why? Because my ‘best face’ is my real face. So, why am I putting on this mask to work? I think to find that answer I need to do some more deep inner diving.
Which leads me to the bigger point:
2. Do you see the yellowish color on the towelette? That’s my foundation. Seeing how much I put on was really eye opening to me.
My skin is my biggest insecurity. I constantly obsess over pimples, red marks, and even my freckles (most I’ve had since I was a child).
In college, I was at a seminar with the entire student body. In which, the owner/founder of the school pointed me out in the crowd and said that I would be beautiful if I knew how to take care of my skin. That moment was devastating, I was humiliated. And that insecurity only worsened and developed into a unhealthy relationship with my skin.
I don’t leave my house without foundation. I don’t even like being alone in my house without foundation in case I catch a glimpse of myself in a mirror!
What can I take away from this experience? Tons.
I’m going to set a challenge for myself and since I’m blogging about it, I have to actually come through. (Feel free to hold me accountable.)
One week of minimal to no makeup. On work days, I will do bare minimal (light foundation and mascara.) And on my off days, I will wear absolutely no makeup.
I know this isn’t a huge challenge for a lot of women, but it is to me. And it’s not the size of the challenge, its that you’re willing to be challenged.
Moral of The Story: We all have insecurities with our bodies, but it’s the little steps towards self acceptance that make the difference!
-Mikayla Olivia Orrson